【Block it Closer】

one of the puzzle gradually emerged in front of me..

I realize that how terrible are human..

... ...I make a  deep breathe..

I try to control my emotions..

I can not impact by those 'ugly human'..

I cannot be down by them..

I told myself don't easily believe in man ..

I want to shut the door inside my heart closer..block it all..

no one even think about to invade my inner world..

no one is the most reliable person in this world..

the only most trustworthy person is Myself..

【this is not an EXCUSE】

I'm so pissed today..pissed with the f*cking teacher..!!!

I absence EKT class last week..so din complete the notes..

EKT asked me why..I told him that I absence on his class last week..

He asked to do..I said that I do not feeling well last week..

"This is not an excuse .."he say..

I'm so hot to heard that! super duper hot!!

and I just try to control My emotion and answer him.. "it's real~!"

After that you know what he ask?
so ironically.."What hurts you? kidney trouble?"

I'm fucking Hot..! don't even want to answer his stupid question!

I looked down and find for My spec..I don't even wanna look at his stupid face!

finally he ask.. "go to see the doctor?"

Hmm..funny..made ​​me feel that you're very fake..!

I did not respond..just quiet..I don't wanna say any word!

I really do not feel ah..I lie to you can making money?!

Do you know how I feel that day?? I was about to die!

the sudden pain get my body could not move!

Perhaps you will think that I'm exaggerating it..because you are not me..

I think you should also try how Myself feel..

Even my roommates asked for why..I just only answer that I feel uncomfortable ..

it's impossible for me to tell you how hard am I feel in front of many people..

Sorry..I won't do so..I just will answer you that I do not feel well..

I don't want people think that I'm pretending to be poor and sympathy ..

you're f*cking pissed Me today!!!

you make me feel disgusted..